just wrote this in an email and thought it travel bloggable:
“everytime i go away [from korea] i realize how much i fucking hate this place. [because the longer i’m here, the more i forget/go into denial/shop my pain away at the underground markets]
you know, the friends have really made it good (i suppose that is anywhere).
thailand was amazing. finally got to breathe again. took about 5 days before “elisa” came back..you know, the person capable of a conversation, the person who actually likes other people.
for 5 days i wasn’t alive yet, it was “leave me alone, let me be quiet with my book/ipod “elisa”…which SUCKS because there was a really good new years party that i missed out on. dancing and a big fire. i slept instead. what a waste. but for the next couple days it was a good time and made up for it.
every time i go on these trips i realize something profound…usually something youve already told me, but i couldnt embody it till now. this time, i realized i need to be a student for a while. stop trying to be the teacher. be a student of life. listen. so thats what 2011 is going to be about. being a student of life, being open. and the second i started doing that, magical things started happening…like an older couple invited me to join their speedboat back to the mainland before my flight so i wouldnt have to take the crowded ferry from the crowded port (a blessing), i learned a tibetan yoga sequence from another older woman in my dorm, and made a lifelong friend. amazing.”
so here’s to 2011: year of learning. elisa as student. elisa listening.
how to put it to use, since by profession, right now, i am a teacher?!
*so i’m a preschool teacher for 2 more months; what can i learn from the kids?
*i’ve signed up to teach yoga 3x a week for a month (subbing while another teacher is away)…what can i learn from these students? learn to observe others doing yoga? learn patience? learn to cater to different levels?
hmmmm… got anything to teach me?